ok so my ear keeps creaking or rumbling
wth
It is so annoying
gahhhhh
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
Sunday, July 24, 2011
too much wine?
So I had a very very very mixed weekend
Starting on Thursday (my Birthday!).... I guess it was alright. It started with a shot at 12am Thursday
and then another
and another
and another
then a lemonade and vodka
and then another shot
then another lemonade and vodka
and then I went home to where I was to wake up at 8am for class at 9am with a mother of a hangover!!!! *dies* My hangover wasn't actually as bad as my flatmate Pikachu where she collapsed in the shower!!!!! (and vomited in her bed) Which I found sort of funny at 8 in thee morning where I was still partially drunk. But somehow I managed to survive class which was two hours. Still horrible.... But I still survived!!! And during the day I had a slice of carrot cake (a birthday present from Jewels) and a pie. and hot chips. and chicken rolls.
maybe some other stuff but I don't want to think about it!!!! Most of this I consumed at work because I felt really sick standing up with a hangover!!!!
When I got home from work I got to open my presents!!!! I sort of have a huge obsessions with rubber ducks! and Pikachu and Miggles got me a chief one!!! and a "rubber" duck, its an eraser! H made me a mega awesome Scrapbook! and T got me a starbucks frappe plastic cup thing with scratchies!!!! Which I won $8 on woooo!
On Friday, I slept until 1pm which was amazing, then I went dress shopping for my party that night. But I only came back with fake eyelashes and concealer after 3hours of shopping. At 6:30 my (ex?) friend D came! She was one of the girls who came on holiday with me.... so that should be very interesting. And we got drunk quickly and dressed and headed down to my party. My party where I hired a venue which 50people RSVP attending to started at 8pm and I got there and there was 8 of us there until 9pm then 5 more people arrived and then 4 more people arrived. 17 out of 50 people turned up!!! That annoys me! I had fun still. But I was annoyed. No one had text me out of the people who did not turn up to tell me they couldn't come. But I still had fun.... maybe because when I got there it went like this.... Pikachu got me a lemonade and Vodka, H's friend got me a redbull and Vodka, Miggins got me 2 lemonades and Vodka, Jewels bought me 4 tequila shots! My friend from work got me a tequila shot and a lemonade and Vodka, T got me doubles of lemonade and vodkas....... I was very very very very drunk! But I was smart, unlike wednesday/thursday. I had water between each drink so I didn't coma or vomit or wake up the next morning with a KILLER hangover!!!!! unlike my friend D, who disappeared that night with H and had an adventure, involving drinking more, starbucks and a bungy ride. yessir.
So on Saturday D and I went and saw Harry Potter. This was my second time seeing it. And then we bused to her friends and we had dinner and drinks there. And then somehow D and I ended up back at my flat drinking with my flatmates and Jewels. Then headed of to town. Where D got in a shitty with me because I had a bite of her burger. *rollseyes* Then I met up with the Lawyer.... he is a mega babe! Like serious! But my flatmates didn't like the bar we were in so we left the lawyer.... mmmm babe.... to go to this club that was packed so full I almost passed out from the heat (I was wearing a velvet long sleeved dress) and so T and I came home at 1:30 to have a sandwich and sleep! But I got woken up at 3am when D came home because she was sleeping in my bed. And then again at 6:30 because she had to get ready to catch her bus. Where she realised she had NO money to taxi to where her bus would get her. So I look up the timetable for buses and tell her if she leaves here at 7 she should be able to make it down to this bus that could take her to where she need to be........ she just complained. woke up H to see if she had money. then T. omg she kept saying it was my fault. but I am not her freaking mother!!!! But T had money so finally I got D off to her taxi and went back to sleep!!! FINALLY! so now its 1pm I just woke up pretty much and I have to clean my flat before I have to run off to Harry Potter again!
Somehow because Harry Potter has finished.... my childhood feels like it is over. So I am trying to get everything out this HP movie before it leaves the theatres forever!!! Btw.... fyi Neville Longbottom.... Matthew Lewis... totally called it in the first movie!!!! I totally had this hunch that he would be this babe when the movies finished!!!!
Starting on Thursday (my Birthday!).... I guess it was alright. It started with a shot at 12am Thursday
and then another
and another
and another
then a lemonade and vodka
and then another shot
then another lemonade and vodka
and then I went home to where I was to wake up at 8am for class at 9am with a mother of a hangover!!!! *dies* My hangover wasn't actually as bad as my flatmate Pikachu where she collapsed in the shower!!!!! (and vomited in her bed) Which I found sort of funny at 8 in thee morning where I was still partially drunk. But somehow I managed to survive class which was two hours. Still horrible.... But I still survived!!! And during the day I had a slice of carrot cake (a birthday present from Jewels) and a pie. and hot chips. and chicken rolls.
maybe some other stuff but I don't want to think about it!!!! Most of this I consumed at work because I felt really sick standing up with a hangover!!!!
When I got home from work I got to open my presents!!!! I sort of have a huge obsessions with rubber ducks! and Pikachu and Miggles got me a chief one!!! and a "rubber" duck, its an eraser! H made me a mega awesome Scrapbook! and T got me a starbucks frappe plastic cup thing with scratchies!!!! Which I won $8 on woooo!
On Friday, I slept until 1pm which was amazing, then I went dress shopping for my party that night. But I only came back with fake eyelashes and concealer after 3hours of shopping. At 6:30 my (ex?) friend D came! She was one of the girls who came on holiday with me.... so that should be very interesting. And we got drunk quickly and dressed and headed down to my party. My party where I hired a venue which 50people RSVP attending to started at 8pm and I got there and there was 8 of us there until 9pm then 5 more people arrived and then 4 more people arrived. 17 out of 50 people turned up!!! That annoys me! I had fun still. But I was annoyed. No one had text me out of the people who did not turn up to tell me they couldn't come. But I still had fun.... maybe because when I got there it went like this.... Pikachu got me a lemonade and Vodka, H's friend got me a redbull and Vodka, Miggins got me 2 lemonades and Vodka, Jewels bought me 4 tequila shots! My friend from work got me a tequila shot and a lemonade and Vodka, T got me doubles of lemonade and vodkas....... I was very very very very drunk! But I was smart, unlike wednesday/thursday. I had water between each drink so I didn't coma or vomit or wake up the next morning with a KILLER hangover!!!!! unlike my friend D, who disappeared that night with H and had an adventure, involving drinking more, starbucks and a bungy ride. yessir.
So on Saturday D and I went and saw Harry Potter. This was my second time seeing it. And then we bused to her friends and we had dinner and drinks there. And then somehow D and I ended up back at my flat drinking with my flatmates and Jewels. Then headed of to town. Where D got in a shitty with me because I had a bite of her burger. *rollseyes* Then I met up with the Lawyer.... he is a mega babe! Like serious! But my flatmates didn't like the bar we were in so we left the lawyer.... mmmm babe.... to go to this club that was packed so full I almost passed out from the heat (I was wearing a velvet long sleeved dress) and so T and I came home at 1:30 to have a sandwich and sleep! But I got woken up at 3am when D came home because she was sleeping in my bed. And then again at 6:30 because she had to get ready to catch her bus. Where she realised she had NO money to taxi to where her bus would get her. So I look up the timetable for buses and tell her if she leaves here at 7 she should be able to make it down to this bus that could take her to where she need to be........ she just complained. woke up H to see if she had money. then T. omg she kept saying it was my fault. but I am not her freaking mother!!!! But T had money so finally I got D off to her taxi and went back to sleep!!! FINALLY! so now its 1pm I just woke up pretty much and I have to clean my flat before I have to run off to Harry Potter again!
Somehow because Harry Potter has finished.... my childhood feels like it is over. So I am trying to get everything out this HP movie before it leaves the theatres forever!!! Btw.... fyi Neville Longbottom.... Matthew Lewis... totally called it in the first movie!!!! I totally had this hunch that he would be this babe when the movies finished!!!!
Thursday, July 21, 2011
its ma birfday so lets light 19 candles
right
soooooooo
ITS MA BIRFDAY BITCHES!!!!!
woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH!
Time to PAAARTAYYYYYYYYY!! Like a motherf***ing ROCKSTAR!
One more day
My weight loss has been a bit of a fail really. Havent really lost. But then I havent gained anything. I'm still sitting at the 148 mark.... At least I am not the horrible weight of 160ish anymore.
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
there's no sunshine when she goes....
Ok so after some serious facebook stalking..... One of the girls I did production with [when I was at my lowest weight of 132lbs] has now got eating issues, she is beyond skinny. Is it bad to be envious of her bones? To think she looks fantastic? To make her my thinspiration? She did it in 6months. She lost most of it in 3. I can do it! I can be thin by September!
I hate how I set myself goals that I never complete
But I have decided after mucho consideration on my part to pull out of flat meals. I mean I don't want to waste money on things I wont eat.
I have decided to follow this lovely girls guide to how she lost weight
http://undressedskeleton.tumblr.com/Examplemeals
I am going to follow them as much as possible [because in NZ there are limited foods compared to the USofA] and keep a food diary on here. I am going to be as skinny as the girl from my production. I will be.
and I will look good in a bikini by spring
I am going to be 136lbs by the end of August
and 130 by the end of september
and 125 by october!!!!!
I am no longer spending any money at work
I need this!
I need something that is different in my life
I know its bad
but after S and I broke up
no after S slept with someone else I feel useless, unwanted.
Some people don't understand this, but I need to feel a sort of satisfaction in my life.
I need CHANGE!
So starting with tomorrow when I wake up
NO MORE JUNK FOOD!
I don't need it
I don't because if I have it, it just leads to one biiiiiig disastrous BINGE.
I know I say this all the time but after getting this new hair colour, I need change. I do
And I have realised that if you want change you need to make the change happen by yourself!!!
SO here goes nothing
xox
I hate how I set myself goals that I never complete
But I have decided after mucho consideration on my part to pull out of flat meals. I mean I don't want to waste money on things I wont eat.
I have decided to follow this lovely girls guide to how she lost weight
http://undressedskeleton.tumblr.com/Examplemeals
I am going to follow them as much as possible [because in NZ there are limited foods compared to the USofA] and keep a food diary on here. I am going to be as skinny as the girl from my production. I will be.
and I will look good in a bikini by spring
I am going to be 136lbs by the end of August
and 130 by the end of september
and 125 by october!!!!!
I am no longer spending any money at work
I need this!
I need something that is different in my life
I know its bad
but after S and I broke up
no after S slept with someone else I feel useless, unwanted.
Some people don't understand this, but I need to feel a sort of satisfaction in my life.
I need CHANGE!
So starting with tomorrow when I wake up
NO MORE JUNK FOOD!
I don't need it
I don't because if I have it, it just leads to one biiiiiig disastrous BINGE.
I know I say this all the time but after getting this new hair colour, I need change. I do
And I have realised that if you want change you need to make the change happen by yourself!!!
SO here goes nothing
xox
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
NEW!
Ok so my hair has gone from blonde to a gorgeous red brown!
I love it!
OMG I have never strayed from my blonde locks and now I am in love. My hair is so shineeeeeey!!!!
LOVE!!!!
yes that is all
YAY!
xx
I love it!
OMG I have never strayed from my blonde locks and now I am in love. My hair is so shineeeeeey!!!!
LOVE!!!!
yes that is all
YAY!
xx
Games
Sometimes when I wake up in the morning I am truely happy with my body when I look in the mirror. Then I have a shower and my brain wakes up and I look at myself again and I hate... And I mean hate, what I see. I want to rip at my skin and pull off any fat. I poke and prod, I grab and pinch, I cry. Its somewhat a sick routien in my head. A sick games that she likes to play with me. To prove that I'm not working as hard as I think I am.
I don't know if I hate the games or love them after I that part is over. I think that is one of the weird things about the games.
Only 10 more days until my birthday.... 10days to loose 10lbs
I think I can do it
I hope I can
here goes nothing
xx
I don't know if I hate the games or love them after I that part is over. I think that is one of the weird things about the games.
Only 10 more days until my birthday.... 10days to loose 10lbs
I think I can do it
I hope I can
here goes nothing
xx
Saturday, July 9, 2011
whats eating you?
First off
I am 149.8
no weight lost
no weight gained
thats a good week I say
Now secondly
I was druuuuuunk last night
I bought a British boy home
[did not sleep with him of course]
but yet there he is in my bed
yes
sleeping there
[laughs nervously]
I was SERIOUSLY DRUUUUUNK!
yep
Thirdly
I am off home for a week
where there is some beautiful exercise equipment in which I will be able to have at my disposal for that entire week.
YAY!
Now I better go pack thy bags
xx
I am 149.8
no weight lost
no weight gained
thats a good week I say
Now secondly
I was druuuuuunk last night
I bought a British boy home
[did not sleep with him of course]
but yet there he is in my bed
yes
sleeping there
[laughs nervously]
I was SERIOUSLY DRUUUUUNK!
yep
Thirdly
I am off home for a week
where there is some beautiful exercise equipment in which I will be able to have at my disposal for that entire week.
YAY!
Now I better go pack thy bags
xx
Monday, July 4, 2011
Saturday, July 2, 2011
Awkward
So I just came back from having lunch with S
yes
and he walked me back to my apartment
and he came up
then I ran to the bathroom and vomited up lunch
I'm pregnant..... lol jks I am just more hungover than I thought
Last night I drank a little..... ok a lot more than a little.... [I am surprised I didn't post anything.... although I did email Nee back quite drunkenly.... I am amazed I made a lick of sense but I did]
but I was fine I remember everything
Including making out with a boy (man) from Chile
meh
I am allowed to do that seeing as S and I are officially OVER!!!
although from the sounds of it he is going to try mega mega hard to win me back!
which makes me happy that someone wants me that much...... but I am unsure of how I feel about him at this point in time.
Yes sir
ooooo guess what girlies from the 22nd June I have officially gone from 159.7 tooooooo 148.8 WOOOOOOO!!!! yeah
hoping to be 145 by tuesday :)
right better be off I have work now :)
ciao pretty ladies
yes
and he walked me back to my apartment
and he came up
then I ran to the bathroom and vomited up lunch
I'm pregnant..... lol jks I am just more hungover than I thought
Last night I drank a little..... ok a lot more than a little.... [I am surprised I didn't post anything.... although I did email Nee back quite drunkenly.... I am amazed I made a lick of sense but I did]
but I was fine I remember everything
Including making out with a boy (man) from Chile
meh
I am allowed to do that seeing as S and I are officially OVER!!!
although from the sounds of it he is going to try mega mega hard to win me back!
which makes me happy that someone wants me that much...... but I am unsure of how I feel about him at this point in time.
Yes sir
ooooo guess what girlies from the 22nd June I have officially gone from 159.7 tooooooo 148.8 WOOOOOOO!!!! yeah
hoping to be 145 by tuesday :)
right better be off I have work now :)
ciao pretty ladies
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