all work and no play makes for a tired nanny

Day 1: School Holidays... No naps + 14, 12/13 year old children "watching movies" = I need a coffee IV
Dying a little on the inside today... And I can't even deal with making a coffee... moving is so hard
...
effort

Last night was AMAZING fun, actually the past two nights have been pretty cool
every second Tuesday I meet up with a couple of friends for a no count Tipsy Tuesday
I mean if I counted I would probably cry
a lot
for days
haha
but Tipsy Tuesday starts from like 9:30 pm - 1 am! YAY! the best fun!
this time there were a couple of extra people, my friend D finally got her act together and got her ID so she can come out with us, and she brought with her, an incredibly HOT South African guy who we met a couple of weeks before (R) ugh he is delicious!   And he got us to play pool, which D, B (my gbf) and I were not complaining even though I suck major suck-age  because R has an amazing body which we were gossiping about every time he would bend over to shoot the ball or whatever you call it I don't know or care. R has a nice butt, and great arms and is gorgeous, and he doesn't know much English, so nafkjasdhfh even makes him more adorable.

And last night D and I picked up R and his friend C and we went to the same place and played pool, but again no complaints because those two are honestly the sweetest guys and have great bodies to stare at... and I would not mind making out with either of their faces... or their friend K...
But sober driver was my role, so I stayed more in my comfort zone and didn't get my flirt on as much as drunk me would

I think I might move to South Africa.... haha

also did I mention I napped all day yesterday ;) until like 3pm haha oops

Day Three:

Breakfast: n/a napping

Lunch: Starbucks Double Shot Energy 210

Nectarine 63

Dinner: Venti Starbucks Iced Coffee w/ 2% 60

Corona 148

Total: 481/863

ciao bellas xoxox

Day Two

I'm going to take it "slow"
I don't really understand myself at the moment haha

but a friend and I want to look like Megan Fox by Christmas... haha it was our goal to look like her this time last year, buuuuuut as always I never made it and we pushed that date to Christmas last year and again pushed it back to this year.

but that is typical for me really...

I think we might actually stick to it this time... I mean I want to 100% stick to it
so here comes operation Megan Fox by Christmas

25 weeks, with specific caloric net goals per week hope to drop just 2.2 lb per week (1 kg)
I used this Calorie Calculator to work it out
Here is the next 25 week plan for me if you wanted to follow along

1. 863	2. 852	3. 841	4. 830	5. 819
6. 808	7. 797	8. 786	9. 776	10. 765
11. 754	12. 743	13. 732	14. 721	15. 710
16. 699	17. 688	18. 678	19. 667	20. 656
21. 645	22. 634	23. 623	24. 612	25. 601

Day 2:

Weight: 172.8 176.4

Intake:

Breakfast: 1/2 sesame seed roll 85

1 oz turkey 30

Lunch: Yoghurt (x 3) 300 

Dinner: Pizza :( (1000)

Total: 1415/863

Exercise:

Sit ups: 500/1000

Walk: 30/30 minutes

ciao bellas xoxox

Day One

I feel like that is a permanent title for me
I'm not going to lie
I promise you
So here goes...

Day One:

Weight: 172.8 lb

Intake:

Breakfast: 1/2 Cup Pineapple 41

Lunch: 2.5 Cups Skinny Pop 250

2 cups Cocoa Rice Krispies 320

Dinner: 2 Starbucks Vanilla can drink things 420

Total: 1031

Exercise:

Sit ups: 1200 /1000

Walk: 20 /30 minutes

ciao bellas xoxox

End of the week... A new try tomorrow

I have always been shitty at starting and maintaining diets, and fasts...
Basically
I suuuuuuck!
I start one diet, then give up then again and again and again. It has been a repeating pattern, I start, I loose a tiny bit, I fail, I gain a whole lot. Forward one step, back two.

Goals for this week:

1. Walk once a day for 30 minutes
2. No carbs, no dairy, no meat
3. 8 glasses of Water
4. Green Tea
5. 1000 Crunches

Reward: Manicure

This weekend has been pretty good to me. My au pair friend and I met a few Afrikaans boys at carnival, and we are slowly becoming friends with them one by one. So two of them joined us at a bar last night where we drank and danced, then moved to a park and continued drinking while running around the wooden playground getting bark stuck in our shoes. I'm starting to miss the attention of boys... these guys who we hung out with are just our friends, and they have girlfriends. I haven't received the attention that makes my stomach flip. Is that wrong to want that?

There is a guy back home in NZ who asked me on a date while drunk... for when I come back. He said he would ask me again when he was sober. He hasn't. 

I'm all confuddled 

p.s. don't hate me, I had pancakes for lunch and a cheese burger for dinner

ciao bellas xxx

I'm Baaaaaack!

I left you all, then started a new blog, then failed at that, gain a bunch of hideous weight
So... let me start again oh hell I keep doing it

Hey! I'm C! 

This is my haven. A place for me to vent and hopefully meet some more lovely girls who would like to talk, and maybe help each other along the way! ;) 
I have had this blog since 2010 (almost 5 years now) and I started my old one in 2012... but I feel like that I needed a clean slate. But my old one never saw me post, and at least here I have the motivation of my past, and how skinny I used to be etc... etc... So here I am! Some of you already know who I am, but I may have been forgotten, but still.... here goes!

I am 21 years old (almost 22), I am 5'10 (178 cm) and I currently weigh and it pains me to say 170.6 lbs. I am about 35 lbs over my lowest and about 40 lbs over my UGW. But to make things a little happier, in the past month I have lost 8.8 lbs 

• My Thinspo's are Cara Delevingne, Barbara Palvin, Megan Fox, Abbey Lee Kershaw... and other skinny pretty models that I am too tired to think of their names ;) thin and beautiful
• I don't exercise much but I am going to try and change that 
• Today I have been fasting :) and haven't let a single morsel of food pass my lips

What happened in my 2 year hiatus... well I got drunk a lot, ate a lot of pizza, rekindled my friendship with H, and D... however all the rest of the people I talked about are non-existent in my life except for T and Gee
Um what else happened, I don't know if I ever mentioned JK but we met in Jan 2011 at her birthday party, which I crashed and then again in November 2011 and we basically hung out everyday, and went out drinking like all the time, and ate pizza all the time, and then she moved to America in August 2012, and then a year later I followed suit to be a nanny for a year. but between August 2012, and Feb 2013, nothing really happened my weight stayed at 74 kg, and then when I moved into a new flat in Feb 2013, my weight went up, I had two iPhones stolen, dated a couple of guys, had flat dramas, and crashed my work car, all in the span of 5 months. Then in July 2013 I moved home for a month before heading off to America. I had my 21st, made out with a couple of guy friends stupid stupid stupid I know, got drunk, worked and hung out with my family and friends
Then suddenly I was in America! and I love it here. I hate the job, and the fact the majority of food is over processed. I do love it. Oh and the winter SUUUUUUCKED! Plus I never lost or gained weight until now. Also I dated this guy for like 4 months, and then he broke up with me because I was going home in a few months, then he started dating my "friend" a week later but she is leaving the month after me... It just makes me angry, so I lost a lot of friends but that's ok because I found out who my real friends are, and I am a lot happier, because there was a month were I basically ate like non-stop.

I don't know if I'm boring you yet haha but here I am. I'm back! and I hope to be back to where I used to be :) 

So here are my current stats and goals

Age: 21

Height: 5'10

CW: 170.6 lb (77.4 kg)

GW1: 160 (72.6)

GW2: 150 (68)

GW3: 145 (65.8)

GW4: 140 (63.5)

GW5: 135 (61.2)

UGW: 130 (59)

HW: 180.8 (82)

LW: 132 (59.9)

Ciao Bella's xxx