Day Thirty Four

GOSH it has been a while... and for that I am sorry
and I am also sorry that I am still fat!
And for this reason I am no longer doing the 60day challenge because I honestly wasn't following the plans or anything since about day 21
been too busy eating and sleeping and drinking
I am liquid fasting from now until Tuesday... and from Tuesday on I am going to be eating very little..... on Thursday though I am fasting
and then it is Christmas
and then after Christmas until the 15th I am going to try fast
so yeah

General Update
I go home on Tuesday for Christmas
I have a Christmas BBQ on Tuesday
My friends b-day party is on Thursday
My brother just came up and visited me... left 30mins ago
I have been working almost everyday
I am broke as balls
I am 72kgs....  my weight just keeps going up

ugh

Day Twenty Four

Is loosing weight one of your top priorities in life?
At the moment
Yes

Today
Breakfast: 1 cup green tea
Lunch: 1/4C Quinoa 150cals
           1 egg 90cals
Dinner: Coke Zero 2cals
           1/C Quinoa 150cals
           1 egg 90cals
TOTAL: 482

Exercise:
Sh'bam: 400cals 
Treadmil: 75cals
Walking 40mins: 135cals
TOTAL: 610


OVERALL TOTAL: -128


:)

Day Twenty Three

Do you feel that your weight holds you back socially?

Yeah... well kind of. I don't really like going out with friends. Well I do, it just has to be with in certain time frames like 1pm - 7pm... and 6pm - 4am etc.... so I can lie about eating.... It sounds bad I know, but its the truth really.... I can't help it. I mean I could but if I went out with them, it normally ends with my favourite food... potatoes... and not any kind of potatoes, but FRIED potatoes...... mainly from mc donalds, or KFC...... its BAD

So today I have had

1x Up & Go Strawberry 350mls - 253cals

3x V sugar free energy drinks 250mls - 22cals

1 Banana - 90cals

TOTAL 365

Exercise

Body Combat: -545

Cycle: -55

Walk 1hr: -225 

TOTAL: -825

OVERALL TOTAL: -460

I know its bad for me, but I really need to fit this dress!!!!!!!!!!

Sorry 

xx

Day Twenty Two

Day Twenty One: Do you listen to music when you work out?
Yes I do... I have a playlist of music that is from thinspo videos I have watched. The music reminds me of all the skinny girls I watched on the video.

Day Twenty Two: Are you generally smaller or larger than your friends?
Smaller probably, but not by much

Week Four!! Switch up your diet. Try one fruit and one vegetable you have never tried before, and learn how to cook a new healthy meal.
I would if I was eating this week
Which I would like to appologise for yesterday
I ate so so so much
I got pizza :(
I am sorry
But I am fasting with BellaAna until thursday, and then doing one more day after that
also xXpOsErXx will be joining, if anyone else wants to it will be great!!

COMMENTS:
xXpOsErXx: Well Monday to next Sunday will be great as I failed hard yesterday :S
Impractical Shopper: Its not the same tattoo but the saying is similar... I chose dance, because I love to dance, even though I don't take classes any more, it is still second nature to me. But that is cool how you want a similar one!!!! :)


I am sorry I failed yesterday
xx

Day Twenty

Do you binge? How often? And what triggers it?
No I never binge lies!!! I binge all the freaking time. Like I said I don't binge! Yes, Yes I do.... about one or two times a week... and I don't even purge it up.... and its not a one off, its like the whole day! Nothing triggers my binges, honestly I don't have a problem... it's normally when I am bored.... I need laxatives... I don't want to purge.... I don't like purging... but I work in a supermarket, that defs is triggering.


30mins of exercise a day is going great!!!! Haven't done today's just yet.... going to do 2 hours before I go to sleep.......... I ate TWO yes TWO packets of migoreng.... don't want to talk about it. Not just that I ate 8 kiwifruit, and a bowl of cereal!!!! UGH so fat
Can't eat tomorrow. Or Monday, Tuesday. Or Wednesday.............. Definitely not Thursday or Friday..... So lets have it.... who wants to fast with me for 6days? Hmmmmm I need to fit into a dress by Saturday...... I can get into it now but not properly....

Fuck I hate my binges... because I always get to a good place with eating healthy and then BAM migorengafghancerealkiwifruit binge in my face! and then I don't want to eat for a week or a couple of days
buuuuut I am definitely going to do this liquid fast...... yeah only cup of soups two a day tops, green tea, more green tea, and more green tea, laxative tea, gum, water, starbucks passion tea....... Wow so much! and if I get hungry as a mother fucker, I can have a Tomato, or small Banana

Right Have to clean my room
xoxox

Day Nineteen

Have you lied to avoid eating things?

Always 

Day Eighteen

Day Seventeen: Have you ever been called fat or skinny?
WELL that really depends I mean I have been called both but I have been called "fat" like when people you know just want to insult me and call me "fat bitch" etc... and have been called skinny by fat people so I never count it.

Day Eighteen: Do you have to eat any meals wit your family? Are they for or against your diet?
Oh the wonderful joys of not living at home, but when I am home, I do eat meals with the fam, but not all f it, and that is because they are 100% against extreme dieting

Right I am so drunk and I just woke up this is not ok......
I am going to the gym at 11
going to sit in the sauna for an hour... ok thats an exaggeration
but I am going to sweat the drunk out
it works for me
seriously
and OMFG I drank so much last night
I have no idea how I remember everything but I do
and I made out with a really good looking babealicious babe
like WOW

haha
so yeah to drunk for life as always
xoxox
love you guys