Hello my lovelies!
o how I have missed you!
And o how I have missed reading your lovely blogs.... so much to catch up on! Tomorrow I will be spending an entire day(Almost) to catching up!
OK so you know those horrible girls? Well they apologised that night and asked to still go to my Bach with me.... and me being a terribly nice person said yes, but that I only wanted to spend 5 days there, which we did but thank god by the end of it I plucked up enough courage to tell them that in fact this was the last time I would ever talk or see them ever again!!!
Anyway at the Bach I had big breakfasts - coco pops, fruit, toast -, lunch -toast or orange - and dinner well consisted of next to nothing! I would go for a swim after every meal and once before dinner where I would have to walk down this horrid hill it was steep, muddy and made you burn calories like crazy... 0.5km down and then 0.5km back up = 1km x 4 = 4km every day + swimming + extra 4km walks every day in the heat and up and down the hills!!!!! I felt amazing!!!
Then after the trip I went to see my Papa (granddad)........ well....... I have never ever seen him like this!!! He is one of those kind of people who are always strong and you never see them break, like he is always the person when he needs help he just does it himself, he doesn't want anyone to help him! And to see him so broken like this was heartbreaking, and the worst of all my Nana (grandmother), she doesn't fully understand the situation, expesh after having 2 strokes, she didn't actually know that papa was going to die, she thought he would be able to fight the cancer and come out of it. When I talked to Nana, she burst into tears, it was heart wrenching!!! We all had a cry!
When Nana is upset and can't fuss over Papa (Coz he wont let her) she fusses over the next best thing which is to stuff the visitors silly with all sort of foods! ME!
Anyway there goes my good week at the bach, but I think if I had refused she would have been more upset.
I got back home yesterday afternoon.... S picked me up from the airport, the moods were high! I was sooo happy!!! 10 more days until I move to Uni! 10 more days left with S.
10 days left with S was the thought that crashed our moods, we got back to mine sooooo happy to see each other to hold each other................ yeah well u get the point. And then an hour later we were just talking and then valentines day was brought up... and the fact that I will be moving to another city two days before valentines day. I had always hoped deep down that S would want to long distance. Always. But no. It looks like in 9days we will no longer b C and S........ I am just going to be a lonely fat single girl. I cried so much when we talked about it.... and then he said the most annoying thing "This may not be forever, there could be a chance for us at the end of it"
*sigh*
I don't even know what to feel
Ciao Bellas
xoxox
P.S thank you all for all the support I love you all :) x
