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yes thats right fat fat fat

Assignment numero uno

FINISHED MY FIRST UNIVERSITY ASSIGNMENT!!!! WOOOOO!
SO FUCKING TIRED THOUGH
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
FML

Sometimes smiling makes everything better

Oh hello there my beautiful angels.....
yes I do find myself on here trying to type logically at 2:22 am in the morning trying to make sense to my brain, but after 243calories today (Food wise) and a bottle of passion pop I am what you would call fucked..... expsesh since I sluzzed all over two guys at once oh no I am drunk drunk drunk
It may be beautiful and sometimes... but not when you sluzz.... no no never after you sluzz
never ever ever
UNI is amazing
and I wonder if
I will ever remember posting this
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
it feels like a sluzza post
(sluzza = slut. whore etc etc.....)
hmmmmmm
tired so tried sorry for all my drunken posts


OH and it wasn't the mumps it was the flu :)

oh and comments

Twigs Can Fly: my current rats are called pacé, cookie, and bambi, and I have had ones called bubbles, dottie, and amber and thank you muchly for caring xx

~christy~  thank you and hpoefully you get well soon xx

ciao bellas xx

swollen

ok so I had to give up on the ABC not because day 6 and 7 failed by over 300cals each but because even though I was going to get straight back on the wagon and have control, I woke up on monday morning with the biggest swollen checks.
I went to the doctor and apparently its my salivary glands, and it can mean three things... A) I have a mild case of the Mumps... even though I was immunised against them when I was young I can still get it. or B) I have glandular fever...... or C) they have no fucking clue whats wrong
so there is an upside to walking around looking like a fat chipmunk, is that I have no appetite! none whatsoever.... I am hungry don't get me wrong, it is just I can't eat like I can't my body doesn't want any food!
Oh and if I do eat it just comes back up.......

in a way its good but I feel like shit

well off too sleep again
I am super tired
xx
ciao bellas

drunk

sooooooo crunk its beautiful!!!! everything is beautiful
exspesh you girlies!!!! your all so fucking gorgeous!!!!

p.s. love this music video/song

Day 6

Day 6

weight: 148.8lbs

Amount: 200

Plan for today:

Breakfast: 0

Lunch: 0

Dinner: 0

ALCOHOL = 200?

Total: 200?

Exercise:

dancing until I can't feel my feet

only 1.2lbs down......... only 23.8lbs to go

Day 5

Day 5

weight: 151lbs

Amount: 100

Plan for today:

Breakfast: 0

Lunch: 0

Dinner: ryvita crackers x2 (100)

Total: 435

Exercise:

hopefully 1hour of Calisthenics (push ups, situps) (546)

net total: (-446) if I do the hour of Calisthenics... which I am doubting due to the assignments.... but 100 is a good number too :)

Today is day one of  the Super Slim Down competition......  it goes from now until the 21st of May, I think there is still time to join if you want to. 

sorry for the short post have heaps to do xoxox

*** EDIT ***
I fucked up big time BINGE = 500 calories over
thank god I did my hour of Calisthenics

Day 4

Day 4

weight: 151lbs

Amount: 400

Plan for today:

Breakfast: 0

Lunch: avocado (161) on toast (100)

Dinner: Chicken 50g (65) potato (109)

Total: 435

Exercise:

1hour of Calisthenics (push ups, situps) (546)

Thankyou very much to Tali for the versatile blogger award! 

the rules:

1. Thank the person who loved you enough to bestow this gift

2. Share seven things about yourself.

3. Bestow this honor onto ten newly discovered or followed bloggers - in no particular order - who are fantastic in some way.

4. Drop by and say hello :)

number 1. is done.... THANK YOU TALI :)

number 2. seven things

1. I am addicted to shopping on ASOS.com.... my wish list is like as long as me

2. I think I am born in the wrong era. I wish to wear a corset and big skirts, and eat cake with Marie Antoinette and not gain weight from doing so. 

3. I hate working as a checkout chick... customers annoy me and sometimes I want to scream at them

4. my trigger food is avocado on toast (I am surprised I didn't binge today.... normally if I eat on piece I eat six more then follow through to eat the enire pantry)

5. I enjoy seeing people suffer through my gain... I know its sick but its true... it makes me feel even better about myself

6. I love Disney princesses

7. I hate when people do things for me or tell me what to do


number 3.
1. mint
2. coco
3. pixiestix14
4. miss muffit
5. teaspoon
6. bony bunny
7. marsh.sara
8. CravingThin
9. m
10. ? can't think of anyone I am too tired lol sorry


I am seriously getting sick of my flat mates.... I just  am so sick of it like ARGH!!!! H is getting on my nerves.... She isn't talking to me because.... wait for it.... she didn't want photo of her up because it showed her cleavage....... ummmmmm with boobs like hers its hard not to see fucking cleavage!!! But I was going to delete it because it was a weird photo and blurry..... and I was about to delete it when her comment went up and seriously like I told you I hate it when people tell me what to do!!! I hate it!!! so I just left it and continued to go through the photos and deleting the blurry ones etc... and then... and then I was about to delete another terrivle one and she was like "delete it" etc... then called me a bad friend.... wtf... and then I really didn't want to remove those photos.... so now I am a bitch!
I really don't care!!!!!
I am over it...
I like sitting in my room by myself in quite not talking to anyone, I don't think I am much of a people person.


As for today..... I kinda just ate 100 calories of chocolate before I stopped myself from binging, and I am tired and sic of people.... so time to clean up do some homework and do some more situps


ciao bellas love you all

Day 3

Day 3

weight: 151lbs

Amount: 300

Plan for today:

Breakfast: 1/2 orange (18)

Lunch: 1/2 orange (18) 2 peices chocolate (86)

Dinner: Chicken 50g (65), Quesadilla (160)

Total: 347

Exercise

Walk 4km (240)
Total: 240

net total: 107

OK so its offical I am FAT!!!! It is gross...... I am 151lbs and like that is disgusting I havent been that weight since this June last year..... I do not like it and I swore to myself I wouldn't get to that weight ever again but alas there the numbers flash on the screen.... LAUGHING AT ME!!!!
I am never ever ever ever ever getting to that weight again I swear!!!!

BUT out of this horrible situation I have a silver lining..... that yes I indeed bought myself a lovely scale today :)

So day 3 is going pretty well I'm not even hungry and its great!!!! 300 cals total.... well just over.... I have been going just over because I slip up with chocolate that people offer me and then forget I had it until after dinner! Sometimes I can be so so so stupid!!!

Twigs Can Fly: YAY TALL PEOPLE!!!! :) I automagically love you too :)
~christy~: I will never give up not with you girls helping me :)
Mich: OH I AM GOING TO INVESTIGATE THIS!!! I so want a BLT!!!!

also big love to my new followers xx ;)

right now I must go clean my room and shit so yes

ciao bellas until tomorrow xoxox

Day 2

Day 2

weight: unknown

Amount: 500

Plan for today:

Breakfast: 3 pieces chocolate (129), Green Tea 

Lunch: Can of chicken (136), coco pop chex (50) w/ milk (20)

Dinner: 100g Chicken Breast (116) Potato (109) Lettuce (13)

Total: 573


Exercise:
Walk 3km: roughly (180)
Sit ups (100)
Total: (280)


net total: 293


Ok I really am sick of not knowing my weight.... so when I get paid tomorrow I am off too buy some scales like seriously I hate not knowing..... I haven't weighed myself in like... um almost 2months!!! its ridiculous I need to know. ARGH!!!
I have so much shit to do!!!! Its great coz like I'm not thinking about eating and if I do I take a caffeine pill..... I only really get hungry every 5hours so its not too bad I guess.

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Alright so my flat mates all got home from class and are eating lunch.... I have already had my can of chicken...... ican'teatican'teatican'teatican'teatican'teatican'teatican'teatican'teatican'teatican'teatican'teatican'teatican'teatican'teatican'teatican'teatican'teatican'teatican'teatican'teatican'teatican'teatican'teatican'teatican'teatican'teatican'teatican'teatican'teatican'teatican'teatican'teatican'teatican'teatican'teatican'teatican'teatican'teatican'teatican'teatican'teatican'teatican'teatican'teatican'teatican'teatican'teatican'teatican'teatican'teatican'teat

needtobethin

argh

I want a BLT but ABC wont let me :(

I was fine this morning but I just want a burger

FOOD in general argh

need a scale now

need to know how much fat is sitting on my bones

sometimes I really don't know how I eat so much, so that I became this big.... I feel like I have put on like 8lbs since I moved to uni when I left for uni I was like 146/148 and I feel like I could be  154/156 

so gross

well I am off for a walk now by bellas

xx