I always wanted to be so delicate I could break.
I always say wanted, like don't want to be anymore.
It makes me so angry.
At myself....
I can never be so delicate I could break, I mean I could but I don't have the will power.

Another thing, I want to be strong, fit, healthy.... yet I binge, restrict, over exercise, don't exercise enough.I have no balance no medium. No power......
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I need help

But apparently I am the only one who can help myself